Learning My Own Astrology: A Reflection On My Interactions With The Universe
This learning experience was so fun for me. It was easy to lose myself in a rabbit trail of information and compare different things from different places. I have always been interested in Astrology but have never made it past the superficial layer before. Taylor is much more knowledgeable in this particular area, so it was fun to finally delve a little deeper and then compare what I learned to my own birthdate as practice and compare my findings with how I see myself.
So today, in what I am counting as my small act of bravery for the week, I am going to be transparent with you and use my own personality as a teaching tool to break down some of the things/ terms I learned and help provide some hands- on context to what Taylor shared in our last post.
As a base line: I was born on Tuesday, January 17th, 1995, at 2:13 AM in Phoenix, AZ.
To get a more accurate in depth look at your Astrological relationship with the world you need: date, time, and general location (the day of the week is irrelevant, I just happen to know it was a Tuesday thanks to my mother’s dedicated ‘baby book record keeping’).
Let’s go over my Sun Sign first:
This is the one most people know. The stereotypical ‘what’s your sign?’. As discussed previously, your sun sign represents the core of who you are. It showcases your strengths and understanding of the world. I am a Capricorn. We tend to be hard working, loyal, & pragmatic. We are the ‘keep your head down and just keep chugging’ group of people. It is an earth sign. This was interesting to me because on a nerdy surface level: I am a Hufflepuff (5 points to Gryffindor for J.K. Rowling’s intuitive sorting test). On a deeper level, I find this fascinating for several reasons: between the business team that is Taylor and I- I tend to be the more grounded of the two of us, not to say that I don’t have a deeply creative side, but Taylor is the visionary, I’m the auger. I have a strange ability to put the blinders on when things get stressful; I have a ‘deal with it now, melt down afterwards’ approach (and I do have my meltdowns- we’ll get to that). I take it as a strange point of pride that several of my best friends have told me that part of the reason, I’m so close with them or still in their lives is because ‘I just don’t go away’ or ‘you kept checking in even when I stopped answering everyone, and it made me realize you really cared’. I don’t mean that to sound braggy- because it’s not always a great thing. I am stubbornly loyal, and I accept that. Can that come off as pushy? I’m sure it probably can- but I am a persistent person if nothing else.
Next step is our Lunar sign:
Your moon sign is the soul side of your identity, the inside of your sun sign, your subconscious- it makes up a lot of your emotional side. My moon sign is Cancer. This is as close to opposite from Capricorn as possible and makes an interesting pairing if not a sometimes difficult one. Cancer is associated with strong empathy, being intuitive to others, a strong need for alone time and recharge time, & quality over quantity with friends. It is a water sign, and they frequently need to find a way to ground themselves. While Cancers are not known for being lazy, they are much moodier than Capricorns. A Cancer’s tendency towards strong emotions and a need to communicate with others through emotions can frequently catch the Capricorn side off guard. When I was reading about this particular relationship it caught me right in the solar plexus. Both Taylor and Thomas can vouch for the fact that if I do not get my ‘alone time’ or my ‘recharge time’- I turn into a mess. I get moody, emotionally distant, and drained. Little things start to irritate me, and I get overwhelmed easily; My stress level goes up, I begin having flare ups and inevitably get sick. I love doing things with others and being with people, I NEED that connection- but I have a limit and I know exactly what that limit is. The alone time balance is an absolute necessity for me, and it took a long time to learn that you can’t pour from an empty cup. I am emotionally intuitive and connect with the people and world around me emotionally before anything else, and that requires setting certain levels of boundaries or it can bowl me over. This can lead to bouts of depression and anxiety if I’m not careful. I have a small collection of very close and private friends that I hold near and dear to my heart and I protect them with badger-like loyal fierceness (see what I did there?). There are definite upsides to the pairing of Capricorn and Cancer, It’s not all ‘clash of the personalities’- I am not quite Golem. The water aspect of Cancer adds some fluidity and adaptability to my Capricorn side; and the Earth nature of a Capricorn helps me ground my emotions and gain perspective in moments of importance instead of letting them run away with me (I still have my meltdowns- but Capricorn says ‘lemon juice in your eyes? You don’t need your eyes to make lemonade, just keep juicing and rinse your eyeballs later.’). In some ways, my own internal conflict balances me out.
Let’s move on to my Ascendant:
This is how the world sees you, your outward expression of yourself. The personality you present to the world. For me, my ascendant is Scorpio. On one hand, this can be a difficult ascendant according to many; Scorpios can be abrupt, abrasive, and moody, and frequently struggle with negative, toxic, and emotionally obsessive states. On the other hand, Scorpio Ascendant can offer you magnetism and charisma as well as make you deeply perceptive. Let’s pick this one apart, shall we? I have always had best friends or worst enemies. I know I can be abrasive, and I suppose a lot of people probably consider my rapid-fire way of talking to be abrupt. Negative and emotionally obsessive states? Here’s the funny thing about that: I am probably one of the most upbeat, high energy, bubbly people I know, BUT the minute that ‘alone time’ tank dips too low- all of me dips. I go in waves. I always have. My brain gets in a ‘place’ and it frequently stays there for several weeks at a time until it works out a way to get out of it. I’m great at grounding other people (see Capricorn). I get in ‘I’m not enough’, ‘I can’t do this’, ‘the world is overwhelming and falling apart’ moods. I don’t know if I would call myself Magnetic or Charismatic necessarily, but my kindergarten teacher did tell my parents I was precocious (technically I don’t think it was meant a compliment). The fact of the matter is I tend to put myself out there, organize people, and take control of situations. I used to think it was a problem, especially as a little girl being labeled ‘bossy’ or ‘overbearing’ hurt. But the older I get and the more I learn about myself and other people the more I’m okay with it. I have had some luck in leadership and management roles, and I would like to think that the bit of leadership I have can be attributed to a combination of Charisma/ Magnetism, decisiveness, an emotionally perceptive understanding of others and a little bit of a mother hen caretaker habit.
There is still so much more that I need a better understanding of and want to know more about because reflecting on what I already learned has led to some interesting insight and self-awareness. Things that you know about yourself but don’t always admit. Reading the explanations of things allowed me to pause and look at myself in a more pragmatic way. I had a few ‘oh my god, I DO that moments’ (some in excitement and some with a grimace). My next steps will be exploring my Mercury, Venus, and Mars and I hope you will join me for that.
If you are interested in learning more but aren’t sure where to start, a fun exercise/ tool to help you find out your own is: Free Chart – Astrodienst
From there you can go through the process of looking up and learning about the connotations behind your own Astrological relationships. Remember that this is a guide and intended to give you insight into your predispositions, but it does not dictate or limit who you are. If anything, this can be a tool to expose areas of your life that you may need to work on or stay on top of.
All the best, Always,
Mikaela